Yesterday, everything went on a total disaster. I had a rough morning, of which I still can't talk about to anyone. I had a crazy day, I couldn't talk to you. I kept trying and trying but I just didn't had the time. At night, when I finally was able to, we argue for an hour and make up for one half of an hour. I didn't miss it at all you know?
I believe we are awsome together. We don't argue to much, we basicly have the same ideals and ways of thinking, but whenever we do, the subject seems to be always the same: our families. We are so diferent in that.
You don't know my reality and I don't know yours. I will know yours one day but I deeply hope you will never got to know mine.
It's not easy, and you know it, don't you? I know you do. And I can see you can't understand many things in my family relationships and the way we all face them. But I can also see that you try to. I really can. That's why we argue.
Last night I gave in (cedi) in a huge discussion. The last time we had one it was you, remember? You asked me to tell you something and I wouldn't and you gave in your pride for me, for us. It was a long time ago but I remember it perfectly. I thought that after that argue we would break up. You weren't willing to give in and neither was I - I got so scared of loosing you that day... But in the end you did and everything went alright. Last night was my turn and I understand it very well.
I still can't understand very well what you're asking me but it's not important. I'll gave this in for you this time and I will be just fine.
I'm sorry that latly our days are so crazy but it's a stressful time. You are having rough days, I'm having them too and my hiper sensibility is not helping... I told you last night we would have to be patient. In a minute we will be in Summer, enjoying our sweet, sweet vacations in peace... how does that sound? :) Until then, we have to hold on firmly as we have done till now. No giving up! But don't worry, we will have some treats in the middle (like our 2nd anniversary in April).
I'm as happy as you can imagine. I love our life. Best days will come - argues are needed too in a realationship; they make us stronger, okay?